My Father in Heaven, Hallowed be thy name.

Watching this video gave off a very bittersweet feeling into my bones, Even though I led my life having an absent father, I am thankful for a bigger Father walking me through, helping me experience love every step of the way. Life is bigger then the work you do, then the things you go through but the ones you love, treasure them, because its what makes you complete in God.

In God's Love and Mine

Kenneth Heng

Random Musing

This is just a rambling, but I think its really important to be that I am understood, sometimes I cant express myself well doesn't mean I am not doing anything, reason I don't share as openly because I do not want to create false expectations that it is going to be happening, God you take control, take the wheels of my life.
I do not want to live up to anyone's expectations but you.

In God's love and Mine,
Kenneth Heng

What counts

My Heart pounded, my mind raced, what was I really living for?
I couldn't just have a dream, but I needed to make it count for eternity.
I couldn't just think about it, but I needed to work on it.
I couldn't sleep because of it, because I wasn't living for it.

Not yet,
Jesus' one action, spat wine mixed with myrrh and gall while after all that pain and suffering did not even take a dose of what would numb him from it, I took a hard look and felt God saying,

I took it all, and I want you to know, I took your pain, shame and sin.


that action represented so much, it's meaning is drawn to huge emotional extent, and its impact entails the huge love God has for us.
What really counts for eternity for you? will you be daring to pursue your desire in serving God for something that he really counts for?

I'm writing this to continuously challenge my to live only for what counts, right now I feel I cant live with myself knowing that I can do more with what God has called me to. Pray with me.

In God's love and Mine
Kenneth Heng

At World's End

Cyber bullying, Critique, Corruption, Violence, Infidelity, Addictions. These are the things I read on the papers,

it hit me so hard, what is Singapore becoming? are growing into what we are made to be? So many things now seems to be out of control, whether is it the concept of being out of control, or being extensively engross into a certain paradigm, we have evolved into a stage where we think that only we are right.

Humans, I personally believe that God created us to be different, different from plants, animals. From the simplest look of our aesthetics, to even our intelligence, we are just different. God called us to be like him.

Question is, How?

God has been impression on my heart for the longest time, a paradigm that could help community grow further.

Compliment.

Everything should be done in compliments, like how chocolate goes really well with a ripe banana, and how a car can run better with cleaner fuel. like how Iron sharpens Iron, can Man work with one another.
But over time, sharing this was increasingly difficult, everyone was living in a paradigm where it is not right to be corrected even if their are wrong, and somehow makes different stands to prove otherwise.

A concept is good, but will it be better adding on something?
Tea smells good, will it taste better with a dash of sugar?
Ice Cream is amazing, will it be better with hot waffles?

although different people have preferences in food, but I believe there is a take home here, we can choose to change the way we see things, and we can always choose not to. but when we decide "not" to choose, the choice goes to the latter.

Do something if you want to see the world change.

In God's Love and Mine,
Kenneth Heng

Dissatisfaction

4 days, 2 days of discontent, wrestling and struggling. God crippled me, and said these words, "How much do you think I love these people? How precious do you think they are to me?"

That 2 hours, I just sat that crying, the tremendous amount of emotions that just overwhelmed me, is this really a fraction of how you felt? the amount of love that you had for us is just so much, that we just failed by drawing our focus in reaching to you rather realising that you have always been holding on to us, every Joy, every Sorrow, every Storm.

Everyone should experience this amazing amount of what God has truly promised each and every single one of us. "He knit me in my mother's womb, and when I was awake, He was still with me."


Believe, that when you let go of everything, God holds on with everything. It doesn't matter what you do, but what God does with you. He has promised life and life more abundantly, are you truly willing to accept it with all your heart and fully receive what God has given you?

Sounds like a fairy tale? a journey with God is an experience, not a statement or story, life changes based on the choice that we make, this is my choice.

Silently waiting upon God, this 4 statements were poured out from my heart.

God, let me feel your love, so that others can feel it through me
God, let me feel your joy, so that others can celebrate with me
God, let me feel your peace, so that others can be comforted by me
God, let me feel your pain, so that others can see it in me


Freely you have given, freely you will receive.

are we daring to be a different generation?


In God's love and Mine,

Kenneth Heng

Puppet and Puppeteer

Little tools, chipping away at a piece of wood.. Alas! a figure is form, limbs that could in free motion, so graceful and dainty. A paintbrush, "here goes the eyes... Perfect. Now lets try the other areas, mmm.... it is good". with a push and tug, "that's right, great step forward!... you are doing well!"

I've heard it somewhere before, a relationship with God is like a Puppeteer and a puppet. The Puppeteer creates the puppet with such tremendous fear and perfection, watching his greatest creation come alive.

you are beautiful, just the way God has created you in such fear and perfection.

Puppeteer saw the puppet, the way he moves made him so proud. A solid thud.. "Come on, pick yourself up.. thats right.. watch out for that bottle of paint on the table... be careful."

God looks out for you, even when you are down.

"Look at the mess you create, don't you worry, it will be better, trust in me, walk towards me"
Lengths of twine laid out on the table, "its so that you are free to choose who will be holding you up and moving you around", "I love you and would love to use you for my shows, but only if you choose me to wield you in all glory"

God gave.. Free will. the freedom to choose the one that will change our lives forever.


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Its always a constant struggle to me, the fact that someone else have to take control over my life, I was made with hard knocks, trying to be independent all the time. trying to be the person that people can lean on, look towards, but God had other plans.

Are you able to believe that my ways are higher then your ways and my thoughts are higher then your thoughts?


In my life, I want more, I want life to be more than this, everything I can humanly plan for isn't enough.

Alot changes when we choose the Puppeteer to puppet us, that we were meant to live life, and life more abundantly, I want more then a life that society dictates for me, I want more then a life that my family dictates for me.

Give up your life for my sake, as I have given up mine for yours.


The radicalization in my choice to see that God is real and my actions changes my lfiestyle.

To live a life in complete dependence on the Maker, Can we?




In God's love and Mine,

Kenneth Heng

Dreams

Do we believe we are made to be the best of these?

is everything that is going on at this moment in time, a testimony of what you believe in?

everything you do? everything you say? every decision you make?

Do they speak of what you believe in?

God create us to live life, and life to the fullest (John 10:10)

What is your dream?

The older generation tells us dreams are unrealistic and that we should do what seems to be logical.

God tells us, he created us for a purpose, to lead a life of abundant joy and love, that through Him, all things are possible.

Do we truly believe in that with all our hearts? or is there doubt?

Matthew 6:24

No one can serve 2 masters;

Financial stability, School grades, High Paying job. These maybe really necessary in our lifetime

But are the allowing us to lose our dreams? our hopes? our lives?

Do you truly believe, that with God you can be 

a teacher, that changes lives?

a lawyer, defender or justice?

a doctor, that heals?

a businessman, that impacts the marketplace?

a chef, that cooks with love?

an engineer, that builds with integrity?

If you do, NEVER stop pursuing your dream with all your heart, hold fast to someone and bring them along this journey of realizing the dream God has called you to.

You were made for more than this.

In God's Love and Mine,

Kenneth Heng